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Disheartened

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Today was disheartening.

A year ago while performing in China, I damaged my vocal chords. The speaker configuration at the venue was such that the microphone couldn't be turned up very much and I had to sing at a very high volume to be heard by the audience. My vocals were not strong to begin with, and after two nights of over-singing, my chords gave up. I was unable to speak normally for several months, and recovery only became somewhat noticeable in June. Even now though, I haven't fully recovered.

Today was evidence of that. We booked a recording studio to get experience in a recording studio, to see how things are done, and to make sure that the music material we have is compatible with the studio. Everything was great, except for my voice.

It was crystal clear that my voice is not yet ready for 'prime time'. It was broken and raspy. It definitely needs time and work.

So, it is not possible at this time to set a release date for the album. In the meantime, while I work to strengthen my voice, we'll continue to work on the various things that pertain to the album; designing the CD cover and insert, re-designing my web site, arranging the remainder of the songs, thinking about marketing, etc.

There have been many obstacles to recording this album. When it is finally released, it will be a symbol of victory against all odds.

Cantonese hurts?

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I visited Doctor Nasseri again today for one last check up before I return home to Hong Kong. The news wasn't great, but it was revealing.

Over the last week or so, I have been listening to my Pimsleur language courses again. With nothing to do outside of my daily lessons with Peisha, I spend a lot of time walking from place to place listening to the courses. I'm currently learning five languages as a hobby. I realise it has been and will be difficult to learn five (or six) languages simultaneously, and that's ok. I'm not in a hurry, but last Christmas when I damaged my vocal chords, I stopped learning the languages and didn't start again until last week; an 8-month hiatus.

So I started listening to the lessons again, taking care not to speak too much. Sometimes however, it can be difficult to restrain yourself when you're having fun, and on Wednesday in particular, I spoke more than I should have. In addition, I chatted with a couple of friends for an hour or so. Whoops!

My voice felt really rough last night, and today when I saw Doctor Nasseri, the endoscope showed significant swelling in my throat. The doc was not impressed.

In my conversation with Doctor Nasseri, the subject of Cantonese came up, and the conclusion of our little discussion and my personal analysis from years of experience is that speaking for any length of time in Cantonese may hurt my chords and strain the muscles! The challenge with Cantonese is that the nine tones (some institutions now only teach seven) cover a rather wide dynamic range with the lower tones dropping quite low for men.

At TVB all those years, I was very aware that if I didn't drop the pitch of the lower tones, I would automatically generate a foreigner's accent, so I strived to drop that lower tone. But the natural range of my vocal chords is not that low, and over the years, I have developed the damaging habit of talking at a pitch lower than ideal for my chords, producing sound from deep down in my throat instead of projecting resonate sound forward as normal people do. I know from experience that if I partake in an interview that goes for an hour or so, my voice will be non-existent at the end.

It's also true that Peisha's lessons are strenuous, and she has told me more than once that if on any day I do one of her lessons, that I should not sing for the rest of the day. It would now appear however that I shouldn't talk for the rest of the day either! And that includes my language lessons.

But these are almost certainly not the source of my vocal problems. Rather, they're probably indicators that my method of vocalisation is wrong. I have thought long and hard about this, and I have come up with a few possible causes of my difficulties. First, I like to learn languages and sing, and I will quite often vocalise these even when I'm in public, on the MTR for example. To avoid disturbing the people around me and to avoid embarrassing myself, I learnt to vocalise very softly, often internally, which is the exact opposite of how we are supposed to vocalise.

In addition, my lifestyle for the last ten years or so has me at home most of the time where I say very little. Without exercise, my chords have probably weakened. A sudden trip to the local karaoke to sing for two or three hours without prior training, warmup or preparation is definitely prone to damage the chords.

So how do I fix everything? First, practise speaking at a higher pitch, at least two musical tones higher, especially if speaking for more than just a moment! Speaking higher is much easier on my chords. I also need to re-learn to project sound correctly. I will be making a few visits to my friendly speech therapist in Hong Kong to accomplish this.

Next, continue working with Peisha's lessons, but absolutely remember not to speak or sing for the rest of the day. Only then will the chords have a chance to heal and strengthen. When the chords are strong, the muscles won't need to work and the strain will be forgotten.

But before I do any of this, I'll take a two-week vocal rest to allow my chords and throat to fully recover. In the meantime, if you run into me on the street and I don't say much, please understand :-)

Make no mistake. The developments of the last few weeks have hit me hard. At times, it's very depressing because certain dreams and passions have to be put on hold, and you're left wondering if you'll ever conquer the problems allowing those dreams and passions to eventuate. But then you remind yourself that this is also a great opportunity to begin afresh with correct technique. You remind yourself that this 'end' is in fact the beginning of a new journey in life, a journey where those dreams finally become a reality.

By the way, there is a weird phenomenon with learning languages where if you take a break from learning a language for a period of time, the next time you come back to it, the language will seem clearer. Happily, that has happened for me. I can now clearly hear most of the sounds in the languages I'm learning; Spanish, Italian, Japanese, Hebrew, Farsi, Indonesian and Arabic. I have a long long long way to go before I can converse in any of these languages but the progress is encouraging. It's also a great boost to enthusiasm when you encounter people who speak the languages you're learning. In the past weeks, I've encountered people speaking Spanish (no surprise there), Hebrew, Italian and Farsi. It's especially fun to encounter Farsi people and surprise them with a few words because they almost never expect to hear Farsi from a non-Middle East person.

Stay well people. Khoda hafez.

(edited twice, the last edit being made on Sep 4)